I appreciate..

I realise for me..
one of the best thing in my life is my dear..

I love and miss the time i spend with him...
even just looking at his sleepy face will make me happy...

contented having him by my side...
I really am a lucky girl to have him...

A new friend of mine told me that i have a good boy friend..
very lucky of me..
coz it's tough to find such nice and understanding guy..

All along.. i appreciate him.. and i love him too..
and after what my friend had said..
I realised that she's very true..
I really am lucky..

From now on.. I will appreciate him more!
I really hope this will all not just vanish one day.. just like that..

I've found the right guy!

Sorry dear..
I DOn't know how to react now...
i'm not feeling like myself for now..
very numb as a result of excessive hurt
or shall i say self hurting due to thinking too much..
very afraid evrything will be gone in a blink of eye
maybe i shall not expect too much
too much given.. too much to lose
a word to describe everything- selfishness
my love is too selfish..
and i hate it too
it's very annoying i understand.
making people to suffocate, gasping for air, and perhaps freedom..

A harm done, forever there

A harm done.. by our own action..

It will be forever there.. impossible to wipe it away..

My heart is filled with holes.. some being filled.. yet there'll always be a mark there..

The choice i made or something that can't be controlled..

I can't control myself..

Is it true that the more you love a person,
the more you'll hurt him?..

Everything he says or does affects me..
making him feels that i'm unreasonable..

The words i use.. hurts him...

Even..
even.. when i regret saying those things..
it seems to be too late..
too late for everything to go back as usual..

Even a little joke of him..
I tend to take it seriously.. without weighting how ar is it true..

Just because.. it all came out from him...

I don't know how to express my feelings anymore..
Words seem to not be able to show him how i feel for him..
the cruel fact that i love him.. unconditionally..
the fact that he doesn't seem to realise..

It hurts me..
hurts me a lot.. when he makes me feel that he questions my love for him..
It just hurts me when he doubts it..
even... if he doesn't admit it..

Maybe it's all my fault..
maybe what i've been doing all along creates more doubt than confidence..
Is this what i deserve?
Is this my retibution?

But.. for now.. all i want to say is.. i love him with all my heart..
and it never changes..

就只能是这样吗？

有很多种人，有一些人很坚持、对他的信念很有信心..

这一种人做事坚决，不会因时的流失而放弃..

也许是在事业上、功课上、待人处事上、或甚至在感情方面..

也有一些人，对他想要得到或做到的事务，缺乏或甚至没有信心..

这一种人会因过去的失败而对现在想要做的事情失去信心..

这也许是因害怕？

可是, 人，如果想进步、更上一层楼的话，不是应该面对所面对的困难吗？

如果逃避，人就会永远永远地停留在那儿.. 经不起时间的考验..

受伤的，不单是那人自己..

连关心他、爱他的人也会受伤..

Today in London ^^

waiting for the tube after a whole day of outing...=p

the Big Ben

eye of London

London Bridge is falling down~ falling down~

Wee~ leicester square, soho(china town)

daddy at tower bridge~

the tower bridge was lifting up the platform..

tower Bridge ^^

wee~ near London Dungeon.!

Portsmouth

KFC in UK! wahaha..

my aunt =)

wee~~~

me and my dad, holding hand.. =) mummy don't be jealous a... wakaka

hahaha!

seagull

weee.. the beautiful beach..

ice-cream!

my aunt and my daddy ^^

me and my dad =)

map of Portsmouth

my dear daddy~

Wee~

This few days, i had been lazyyy..

besides of going out for meal, and to near places, i had been staying in the hotel room..

maybe it's because it was too hectic for me for the last week...

haha

anyway, today was kinda happy.. coz...

I finally bought a belt each for HiM and my DaD!

hehex... i bought the same pattern of belt for both of them...

hope both of them will like it... I got 5 pounds discounts for each belt..

the belts are reversible...

For my dad, one side is black, the another side is brown..

As for Him, one side is black. another side is white!

lols... i think it's really nice.. but not sure about both of them...

anyway, really happy bought the belts for them.. =)

Scary

scary scary scary scary scary scary..

don't ask don't ask don't ask don't ask

yerhhhhh!!!!!!

Pity

Reminds me of something..

Yesterday... I went to have a drink with my dad in a pub at Earls Road..
but i was approached by a waiter there asking for my ID card..

Gosh.. I had left my bag in the hotel room..

But then my dad assure him i'm not underage.. i'm above 18 man!

but the waiter dared not to take the risk..

but then, still i finished the beer and left with my dad soon..

Gosh! do i really look so immature? ..

T.T my dad said that i look like 15.. ZZZ due to my height and size..

It's just so unfair! Even my retired aunt is shorter than me!

Madamme Tussaud's

Today, my aunt and I visited the famous Madamme Tussaud's in London.. It's the wax museum..

We waited for an hour just to get the tickets.. Imagine the crowd.. Wow..

The wax inside looked so real.. Really nice.. but the ticket cost us a bom! each ticket cost us 25 pounds.. Very expensive..

Took many photos for my aunt inside.. hehex...

Miss my sister so much today.. Duno why... haizz..

Glad to chat with him today.. =) really miss him..

More picturesss... =)

my dad and I at Marble Arc

busy street in London~

Today in London~

me=) in the tube station... my dad & I in the morning.. =)

my aunt and I Marble Arc

Day Trip to Oxford~

It was raining in Oxford.. =X

my Fish & Chips..

Our meal..

In the Western Restaurant.. hehex

my aunt and my daddy =p

my dad and I.. =)

Oxford..

What to do?..

I'm feeling sad..
This is the 6th day we've never seen each other face to face..
I miss him...
14 days more..
please take care..
it's 6:02 am in malaysia now..
london time 2302..
shall i go to bed now or wait for him?..
can he wake up soon?
or can he not?
...
T.T
confused..

Life in London

Places i have visited so far:

• Kensington Garden
• Royal Albert Hall
• Albert Memorial
• Hyde Park
• Whole Foods Stall
• M&S
• Earls Road
• Sainsbury
• Museums- science, natural history, Victoria and Albert
• Queensway Road, Offbay Water
• Harrods
• Oxford Circus
• Buckingham Palace
• The Queen's Gallery
• The Green Park
• Kensington Palace

* tomorrow, i'm going to visit Oxford. It's two hours away from Kensington.. =p

5th day in London

It's summer now in London..
the weather is changing always..
morning it can be 18 degrees, at night it can be 10 degrees..
very chilly especially when there's wind blow..
haha..
it's very dry here.. need a lot of lotion to prevent skin from peeling..
but my face is starting to peel.. T.T
In London, everyone is rushing..
tube and walking is the main transportation..
It's a busy city..
day is longer than night now..
the sun rises at 4am, sets at 10pm..
you won't know it's late even at 9pm..
the sky is clear, blue..
the clouds are like cotton candy..
very nice scene..
new experience..
=)

London

It's my second day in London.. It's summer now, but still quite chilly in the morning and at night.. miss him so much.. hope that he'll take care..
In London, the main transportation is walking.. it's a good type of exercise..
visited the science and natural history museums today..:) and went to 'four seasons restaurant' for dinner. Wow.. they have really delicious duck! Really delicious..

I have lots to things to say.. but everything seems to stuck inside my heart now..
I can't help having this awful feeling again..

anyway, i want to let him know that I lOVE HIM and i'll always be there for him. my heart will always be with you.. no matter where i am.. so take care ok?..

this is my fren- j-xiang!! wahaha! hope that he won't kill me..

haha.. kian seong~ is this picture familiar? blekk!

He is sick.. Feel really helpless

you're sick.. T,T

buT i don't know how to help you.. and make you feel better...

xiN toNNG...

i can only remind you to drink lots of water and to take care..

i feel so useless myself..

i understand how important this exam is to you..

but i hope that you can relax yourself.. don't get too nervous..

i feel so helpless!

i really don't know what can i do to help you..

can you tell me what can i do for you?

i don't like seeing you being down..

even though each time you'll assure me that you're okay..

but i know deep inside your heart you're feeling very stress..

i don't want you to be unhappy or worried always..

i have a dream, a wish..

i want you to be happy and healthy..

always...

exam really is torturing__ especially this a-levels exammmmm!!!

ishhh!!!!

stupid exam!!!!!!!!!!!

lolx.. releasing stress. haha

no offence..

finished business paper 1 and gp...

dare not think backk..

haiz..

hope that i did okay..

T.T

after 14 days, i'll have my exams again!

gambatte!!!

torture

It's midnight now but i can't sleep

my brain is jam, can't study anymore for now.

tried to sleep but failed..

feeling a bit dizzy, unstable steps

but what can i do?

can't sleep..

after drinking that whole cup of enzyme mummy gave me..

started feeling dizzy..

all the exercises became tougher all in a sudden

lost my concentration

guess i drank too much of the enzyme

now i realised it contains alcohol..

arhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

i can't consume alcoholic stuff when i need to concentrate

if not if i force myself to study

my brain will ''burst''

gambateh!

I need to study study study!!

Exam is just around the cornerrr

need motivation!!

jia you jia you!

因为太在乎，所以哭了。。

我又哭了。。

感觉真不好受。。

我误会他了。。

我明白了。。 他不是有心伤害我的。。

也是因为太在乎太紧张了。。

我们都太紧张了。。

因为太爱了。。

太爱了。。

我感觉很幸福，很幸运。。

因为有你的陪伴。。

没有你的每一天。。 我不敢想象。。

谢谢你对我的包容以及你对我的容忍。。

谢谢你。。

希望我们能够一齐度过所有的难关。。

可以吗？

我真的不想失去我所爱的人。。

我不想。。

I'm feeling so tired..

so tired.. until i feel so stressed up..

tired really.. especially mentally..

too many things nowadays.. exams.. examss.. n examsss

my bestie having problems.. but i do not know how to help her..

T_T really sad..

haiz.. all the best!

wish me luck! n my bestie luck! n also wish him* luck.. ><

muaks! hugs*

i'll always be here for you..

n thank you.. for always being there when i need you..

bags dad bought from london~

junk food from london! candies n chocs! yum yum~

shoes n boots dad bought ~ 5 pairs leh!!

me n zxiang~ in jj

life is always full of uncertainty

Valentine's day

This year's valentine

i had really a great time! XD

celebrated with a friend of mine

haha.. since we r both single so go out lorh..

we went lepaking around..

cinema seems full house both in Times Square n Pavilion..haiz

n the red box full house..

but haha still had fun!

a bit gekk la.. i can't watch movie! T.T

sob sobs..

but kinda funny..

we bump into many of his frens .. ==

but anyway, it was fun! ^^

'april fool'

reli felt like april fool today. =.=

i'm being cheated again! always boys who 'enjoy' cheating me

duno y.. ==

walao

i really thought he is getting married!

somemore gave me all the info

about the venue, time, n stuff.. bout his 'wedding'

felt reli stupid!..

i think my friends will be laughing till stomachahe ><

T.T people said i'm naive, n 'pure'~ duno whether isit a compliment

warn me not to easily believe boys.. or not worh..

-.-

nvm~ but gekk

Feb 13 ^^

today~ feb 13

meaningful day! smile^^

1st- parents wedding anniversery

2nd- me n teck fatt's anniversery (hahaha)

n horh.. calvin's birthday!

just found it out today :p HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

hmm, today is friday- black friday?!!

haha.. who cares~ XD

still very happy :)

hope tomorrow's plan sill go on as usual..

outing with family to celebrate valentine's^^

hehex.. but still really feel like going out with friends..

this sunday :(

Back!

hey guys!..

miss me? haha..

schooling day as usual.. XD

trial exam for A-levels is in April!

woa..! many things to study.. ==

hmm.. valentine is around the corner.. =p

have date? nah... still single

meaning available!! hahaha

never really celebrate this 'romantic day'

too bad huh...

but really feel like watching movie

or maybe just hang-out

this coming weekend..

sad sad..

daddy might be working in London soon~!

haiz.. life~

anyway, smile!!

happy valentine !

for those who are dating- ^^

for those who are single- spend time with ur frens n family!

muaksss!!!